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I must admit this isn't my first "blog" and it will hopefully ..be the one i use the most...i usually have to get a new one because people judge or people make me feel foolish on it..but *shrugs* whatcha ganna do? This one...is mine and mine alone.. people can read and think what they want but I know that it's my out..when things in my life are going crazy!! 
  I am going to Quebec very soon (friday) So truthfully..after friday i wont be writing until about 2 weeks after...Missions trip fun in quebec! How exciting it will be to share the gospel with people..but any how....
    Life has been such a maze lately...a lot going on and in the thick of it feels like im locked in a land where there are no doors no windows and a very low ceiling. but i know this wont be forever. I know that God has a lot for me...sometimes it just feels like im stuck in this spot and ive done it to myself  ....Praise the Lord for not living off emotions eh? ....
     Lost a friend and well ..i dont have much respect from my other ones..its what happens when you live for God.. :) But im ok with that for now..even though a lot of time i feel very lonely i know that God has my back... .its so different this year friendships feel so shallow ..only filling what they need...
=\ enough rambling for now ..