Mountaindew and Reese's peices

....Home is...well *shrugs* Home..I am feeling eally unwanted, except by Elijah..and by the others when they don't want to "deal" with him. I have been having a hard time but I don't want this break to be filled with "mess ups" or stupid moments so i am getting my mind back on the things that count and trying not to be stupid... so i am starting to read gripped by the greatness of God again. which is a WONDERFUL book that if you haven't read you DEFF SHOULD!!!!! 
       so since i've been home which is a week tomorrow *sigh* ONLY A STINKING WEEK..*sigh* lol anyway.....i've been doing a lot of thinking about a lot of things....I am going to be 24 soon.. (thats weird...) i have a guy that likes me (thats REALLY WEIRD)...and i have a really cute nephew and wonderful friends who God has given me....... and I am excited to go see some of them in Maine soon (OH YEAH)
 In exciting news I found lactose free eggnog and milk that tastes like pumpkin pie! As well as ice cream so that was an exciting thing.....for my birthday i am getting a whole bunch of stuff like a hat and footie pajamas..i am pretty excited about that :) LOL I miss my friends a lot but I know God has a reason for this break and i am going to enjoy it while i can...
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break blog 1

https://home.wol.org/giving/giveto/Sarah+Thompson++%28090S5S%29  so i havent raised any support to get to canad yet..but i am praying that it will work out.....*sigh* that is the link if you want to give online :) isn't it exciting?!! to think you can give online? lol well its exciting to me.... well break has been pretty interesting so far...the whole...3days i have been here lol..i already want to go back..but i knew that was going to happen.
so here i sit watching vampire diaries... :) which is good stuff i am on the 3rd episode lol anyway....hopefully soon i will have a wonderful birthday and then i will go to maine and have a wonderful time :)
<3

SO SOON

So....
My time at the Bible institute is honestly almost done. It's crazy to believe quite honestly. I have made so many friends and its a little sad to think that in Feb I will be done. It's also very exciting at the same time ^_< SO Anyway!!!
 This week has been a lot of fun quite honestly..I mean there have been some crazy happenings. but all together it's been wonderful. My friend Ben has come for the week to visit and that has just been such a blessing to me in the fact that we can spend time just chilling, talking and enjoying eachothers c ompany before he and his sisters go back to maine..and i am left in this cold barren ny state by myself.... (ok w/ 1000's of others but none that mean much in all honesty :-p ...lol
                B-U-T on wednesday I leave the B.I for break..which means i will have much more time to write how i am feeling, what I am thinking and everything that goes along with that. from the 23rd of november to the 2nd of jan i will be free flying enjoying my time and sleeping A-LOT as well as getting some homework done (oY!)

God is so good..and is teaching me a lot about my heart and my fear..and about a lot of crazy things....about whats in there..so anywhere there is this guy who likes me..who lives in Quebec...and so i am..just working with that relationship and loving God and enjoying...ok i am scared so not so much enjoying but living with what God is teaching me lol..

Prodigal who?

Interesting.. I’ve been doing a book study with my discipler and we talked about the prodigals son. We decided, upon looking at it more importantly to look at the prodigals father. That the fact that the son came back..ya ok that’s great but, look at the fathers heart in this whole situation. It blew my mind and I wanted to look further into this! The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them so in verse 12..<--when the son asked the father to give him his share of the inheritance..(WHICH he wasn’t supposed to receive until his father was DEAD) The father gave it to him. The father didn’t fight with him, the father didn’t tell him how stupid it was that he was going to do that. The father knew that He was going to screw up, and probably waste all the money and have nothing… ¹⁵ So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. ¹⁶ He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything. In 15 and 16 When the son had lost all of the things that he wanted He knew he was foolish.. but He was fighting.. 17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. WOW [[when he came back to his senses]] When he got ahold of himself.. when HE REALIZED.. what He had done was foolish He knew that his father was taking care of the people that worked for him! Even better than He was being taken care of (HE WASN’T) So He knew he had to go to his father!!

-now comes the exciting part-
“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.”!!!!!!!!!!! The father was waiting for him! He was looking for His son! He was waiting and then when he saw him he RAN to his son. Now…the father could have hit the son, or told him what an idiot he was to be gone and waste his money like he did…but he didn’t! That wasn’t the nature of the father. The father loved his son and was beyond excited to see him! (w-o-w)
21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’   22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate. (Now look at this!!) When he apologized to his father KNOWING what the father could say to him…the father instead of yelling, or being stern was SO happy that his son was back that he threw a party for him!!

            WHAT A COOL STORY…but more than that it’s exciting to know that Gods love for us is JUST LIKE THAT!! When we walk away from the father.. taking our inheritance and spending it on foolish feelings, lusts, and moments of joy we think will last forever…He is there waiting for us! When we run back to Him he is going to run to us kissing us, thankful that we are back. He isn’t standing there with something to hit us with, he isn’t waiting there ready to yell at us! He is waiting there full of mercy and love ready to show us the blessings and care he has for us.

            So I urge you..next time you are just sitting in your pity of sin, or if you are just feeling like God is a bully…Read the prodigals son story. And think about how much love the father had for the son and how much the father has love for you J

Excitement

Pretty sure....God has been showing me amazing things lately..lol *shakes head* It amazes me sometimes the things God does for us..just the little things that seem so insignificant to most people and how exciting they are for me...praise the Lord that He is so good..I am not going to lie..it's been hard for me lately to be thankful for being here...but praise the Lord He is so great <3

truth is...

Yeah...
So people keep asking how i am doing..and whats going on and if i am happy and how life is and ya know..i keep saying good, and i keep on smiling, and laughing and putting on the face that people want to see but really...im kinda miserable right now..i am not sure why my life is going back to this and i am not going to lie i dont like it...but...i will keep going because in the long run i guess it makes me feel better to be fake then to be real ans continue to get introuble for doing the right thing..why does that happen anyway?..i know its a bad attitude and i am venting and it's like im 4...but really i am so frustrated and sick of people dealing with my...how are you...oh i am fine and then walking away from it believing me..my eyes say so much more and yet people dont take a 2nd glance....

ya know...

its frustrating when people dont believe you...

^_^

Oh..i also decided to write some things that are changing
#1-i am growing my hair..(some of you may have known that some of you may have not) well now you do :p
#2-I am leaving the B.I Soon to go home and get ready for Canada in the summer..my friend thinks that i should go sooner and maybe i will... :)
 #3-I am praying about a relationship...I know not many read this so lol it's ok to put this on here (watch me have a secret following) ooo...man well anyway this guy is cool, Godly and Canadian and I am pretty excited to see what the Lord does with it!!
#4-still raising support for Quebec..i havent made any money yet but that ok I am still trusting God... ;)
I am spending the night at my house tonight like i said and i am getting pumped.//but first youthgroup :-D

after this..

This week has been complete....chaos...yeah thats a good word of it...chaos...a lot of frustration and a lot of pain but God is so faithful and i am thankful for that! It was a really hard week though..and i def trusted myself more then God but I am learning thankfully that He is so much better then anything i could do to make myself feel better..so praise the Lord for that atleast! One of the hardest weeks of my life..but one of the best realizing who my friends are and how God placed them in my life with the perfect timing....
  ....spending the night at my home after going through a whole bunch of junk this week will be honestly wonderful..i am so thankful for my friends and my home that isnt as far away as most peoples so i can relax a little bit with my wonderful nephew <3

wow....

a lot of crazy things have been happening lately..this last sunday we pulled a really great halloweenish prank on my friend Kendra..:) It was a lot of fun and gore and of course pizza and soda ^_^....there has been a lot of fun things as well as some frustrating things. God has shown himself so faithful in everything thats been going on and I am so thankful for that.
   November 1st was 8 years since a really great friend of mine committed suicide and that was a hard day. I am thankful that I have friends who love and support me..and who want me to grow closer to Christ..because without them i am not really sure where i would be.....:)

.....I am looking forward to break..it's coming soon (november 23rd we leave) I turn 24 december 9th and then i will be leaving word of life in Feb...wow everything is moving so fast and as it draws near it makes me so nervous and yet it makes me...excited...we will see what God has :) <3 i am excited!!