truth is...

Yeah...
So people keep asking how i am doing..and whats going on and if i am happy and how life is and ya know..i keep saying good, and i keep on smiling, and laughing and putting on the face that people want to see but really...im kinda miserable right now..i am not sure why my life is going back to this and i am not going to lie i dont like it...but...i will keep going because in the long run i guess it makes me feel better to be fake then to be real ans continue to get introuble for doing the right thing..why does that happen anyway?..i know its a bad attitude and i am venting and it's like im 4...but really i am so frustrated and sick of people dealing with my...how are you...oh i am fine and then walking away from it believing me..my eyes say so much more and yet people dont take a 2nd glance....