Today was the first time I really started thinking about the fact that in Feb I will no longer be a student of Word of life bible institute..that was a scary thought for me. It is hard for me to think that!! I have made so many good friends w/ the people who work there and the people who go there...that I am a little bit...ok a lot bit scared to leave >_<.....I really...am *shrugs* mi madre thinks I am going to screw up really badly..and that truthfully doesn't help me want to leave any more then...I already do..but *Shrugs* I know that God does all things for a reason and that I KNOW if I allow him first in my life that I will be able to handle anything that comes my way..so I am going to start trying to find a job so that I can get some money and then hopefully..go to Quebec...and then come back and be able to live my life..not be stuck in my madre and padre's house..because honestly I dont know how much longer I can handle it...There is one week until I go back to school...and there is a lot going on in my mind and in my heart..and I am thankful for friends who give me a lot to think about..and how I am acting..changes things..in people's lives.....
             I am currently...dealing with an issue....with a friend that i like more then "friends" WELL let me tell you ..one of my friends(ALL of them are amazing) but one in particular..just understands and He is being super helpful just giving me truth and helping me understand things better and today he was talking about the fact that being friends is a choice..as is love..and that if you really love someone and you really..want to be a good friend you choose whats best for them..not whats best for you..and your emotions..as much as you may want that something to turn into more..that's not what it's about.it's about loving the Lord and loving them, and helping them grow closer to the Lord..
       It is a sacrifice..and you have to ask yourself if you are willing to make it...maybe they will realize you are who God has for them...or maybe...just maybe you will be good friends for the rest of your lives and they will never know..whatever happens..the wonderful thing is that The Lord has it all under control...and we don't... :) 
 W-O-W what a little rambler I have become *Shrugs* Oh well..that is ok i suppose..we all have to ramble once in a while..unless your me and then all the time ;)